Waiting for living...

The life that I have now is kinda boring. It's like a limbo. I've been waiting for a long time to have only and only my life to live. It has never happened. Before, it was OK to live in that way. I wasn't waiting for anything,no expectations, no  realistic plans. But now... I need to countdown the days. I dream a  lot, need to plan a lot and I need to try a lot to keep my mind busy so I won't go crazy with now. The life that I'm living now is not a charming life at all.... But I try to do things... There is almost 2 more months for me to stay cool. Then it'll be all different. And in 5 months I'll be the happiest version of me. I gotta keep it up for a while more I guess. So what I can do for now is to focus on healthy eating and living things. Because out of that I literally have nothing at all to do...Gotta find something more I guess...

About today...

Today is finally a real cold winter day and was snowy early in the morning. I went for a walk for an hour. I could only make 5 km. It was frosty all over and it wasn't easy to walk properly. I came back home. Had a nice breakfast with my family.

I'm in the mood to miss my love, my past memories, the cities I've lived in and the city I'm gonna live. I missed living today and I hated waiting for living...

Even though I've missed snowy cold winter days a lot, I just wish myself sunnier days...