Note for myself

Sometimes you miss a place where you've been before so strong, you almost wanna cry. That is the feeling I have now... I've been in Germany for a year in 2012 and had the absolute most amazing year I've ever had. After living all my life in Turkey, Germany was  'freedom' for me... I've never felt so self-confident, independent, social and happy in my life. Now I miss those days... I miss my friends...  I miss the feeling I had in Germany. Right now I'm listening to the radio channel which I'd listened a lot  when I was in Germany... And I'm listening to 'Mad World' at this moment which makes me more and more depressive. I've never felt belonged to any place I lived before. All the cities I've lived in were always temporary for me. I had the most amazing times in Germany but I'd missed Turkey a lot when I was there. So I know this feeling is temporary as well. I even miss italy sometimes a lot even though I visited Italy only once for a week... I find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad... I have an emptiness in me and I can't put any place there that I can call it as it is my hometown. I can't put there one but wanna have them all there in me... Anyway...

Dear me, please consider you might go live in a city anywhere in the world for couple of months in the next winter. Consider that you can learn a little foreign language and spent your money in a wise way rather than spending your money for 10 days long honeymoon... Malta would be a nice choice... You might improve your English, make new friends and enjoy the view of medditeranean coasts in a cozy island...

Dear me, please travel a lot... World is big but not the world you live in right now... Travel to other continents...  Travel as far as you can possibly afford... Live for that... Experience different cultures... Have stories in other land, anywhere other than where you are right now... Because you know, that is exactly what makes you alive...

A lovely pic taken by a lovely russian friend in Germany... Lovely times...

Wow... I really can't handle wit my emotions right now... The desire of being somewhere else is so strong  I feel numb...

My love for pumpkin and the other things...

Hello...

I've been so lazy lately, even though I challenged myself to do lots of stuff... It's because of the weather I guess. It's so cold... I'm lazy to go out for a walk in the mornings... Plus I like cooking more lately rather than following my healthy living rules. Today all I have done was only cooking. I spent all my time in the kitchen. I improvised on pumpkin, made a soup and a real delish dessert for lunch. For dinner I cooked from Turkish Cousine... I've cooked all day long and tried not to eat a lot. Seems impossible but I succeed... I feel hungry now... Here are the pics of my improvised recipes....

Pumpkin Soup

Ingredients
-200 gr  pumpkin (chopped)
-1 small potato (chopped)
-20-30 gr chopped celery (chopped)
-1 medium size onion(chopped)
-Salt&Pepper
-1 lt Chicken broth
-2-3 tbsp. extra virgin olive oil
-3/4 cup milk

Roast all the chopped veggies a little than add salt and pepper. Add boiled chicken broth into the pot, cook about 30-40 minutes. Mash it and add the milk at the and. Cook 2 more minutes. Ready to serve... I made also pumpkin and celery croutons for serving. It was delisicious...

Vanilla oatmeal porridge topped with mashed pumpkin

It's easy as its name.  Cooked the pumpkins for 1 hour with sugar, mashed it. Made the porridge with milk, sour cream and vanilla( no sugar added) and stuff them into a nice icecream serving bowl. It was unbelivebly delisicious. I couldn't expect that much!!!

I reached 2 minutes on my plank challange. But I don't do it everyday, or more than one time in a day. It's lazy of me but if it works in that way, I'll do in that way... I weigh myself every morning and I see day after day how crazy body I have. At the end of January I saw 56,3 on scale. 1 February I was 55,6. 2. February 55,7. Yesterday even though I haven't eaten any unhealty  stuff or junkfood I was 57 than with that motivation I couldn't stop myself from eating junkfood all thay long  but I felt hunger a lot as well. This morning I was 56,1... I just don't get what my real weight is. Let see how it will be tomorrow...

On the other hand. I'm missing my fiance a lot. Last night I had a sad dream. I was crying in my dream. Then I woke up and realized that I'm actually crying to hell out of me. I couldn't sleep for an hour. Then went to bed again. It's not getting any easier day by day as I thought to be... I miss him a lot... This soldering shit is really sucks!!! They should have the opportunity to decide weather they want to join the army or not... Not everybody has to be a patriot...

Tomorrow health issues day again. I'll be in the hospital...

That's all for tonight...

I'm gonna beat you so bad dear challenging February

Hello...

I rock! As I mentioned before this month is gonna be a challanging month for me. There are some challanges that I need to complete. First of all there is this plank challenge, starting from today I need to stay  on this position everyday longer and longer till I reach to 300sec. This won't be so hard I guess cause I already can stay for 105 sec. Then there is this loosing weight challange which is also going great because I started under my starting weight. It ca not be so hard... Then there is also go for a walk challange. I  set my goal as 10km walk everyday but it might be a little too much since winter is all around the country. Sometimes it gets so cold and I don't wanna go out for a walk early in the morning. I guess I'm gonna make it 5. Today I walked for 10km though. Anyway at the end of the month I'm gonna be 54 kg, healthy, fit chick done with all my challanges. Hopefully!!! About the measures of my body... I measured, weighed myself yesterday. But it did already changed today.

Yesterday's numbers

H:168 cm
W:56,3
Chest:84
Waist:67
Hips:96

Today I weighed myself again in the morning it seems a lot of weigtloss in a day so it might not be right but i saw 55,6 on scale.

On the other hand healthy eating thing is going great as well. I feel really way better than I used to be. I solved one of my health issues just with eating healthy. And the other solution for that problem  was going under the knife!!!

The boring lifestyle still contuniues... Mostly at home... But it's OK. I'm gonna leave soon...

Here some pictures of what I've been eating in past couple of days...

Breakfast: Whole world knows this breads as french toast but we have it in Turkey in our own way. Turkish french toast called fried egg breads. I is salted spiced and very very delicious. Although it's not a good breakfast for a fit life I guess. But I solved that problem with using very less extra virgin olive oils for frying it. 

Since the time I started post everything what I ate on Instagram, I become an oatmeal freak. I had no idea how tasty it could be before but now i mix it everyday with fruits, yoghurt, milk and i'm really  satisfied with the taste. Delish!!!

This was my dinner yesterday.  My thing is the more satisfying plate I have on my table, the more full stomach I have. Therefore I try to complete my plates with veggies and soup... 

Today's breakfast was a gourmet taste. Spinach omelette with grilled light halloumi and roasted cherry tomatoes, garlic breads, bree and an orange.. Yumm....

And again my oatmeal freakness... I found a porridge recipe on internet. Even though I had no idea what porridge is, i decided to make it. But of course in my own way. I've never been good at folloving recipes, I rather more of improvising. And that is my own way of raw apple porridge with flax seeds, pomegranate, chocolate and cinnamon. It was tasty. Really...